Wednesday, February 16, 2011

The Quarter-Life Crisis

My co-worker posted this, and I fell in love with it!!!  

By:  Author Unknown

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. 

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. 

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared. 

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all. 

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. 

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person. 

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. 

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! 

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

New Bloggy!

So like I mentioned earlier, I have to create a new blog for my Personal Branding class.

Here's my new bloggy!  I don't like my "theme" and background, so I'll be changing those as soon as I have the time to dedicate toward it.

AshleyCray.wordpress.com
Or

Enjoyyyyyyy!

Sunday, February 06, 2011

Miss Monroe

I believe that everything happens for a reason. 
People change so that you can learn to let go
things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right
you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself
and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together
-Marilyn Monroe

Favorite Song!!

This is my new favorite song!!!  

I bounce all over the place every time it comes on

I'm sure I look ridiculous in my car bopping around.

I still do it though :-)

Is it too much to ask?

I think traveling is wonderful.  I wish we all could travel more often.  A lack of resources ($$) puts a constraint on the amount of traveling I'd love to do!  Does anyone want to go to these places with me?  I need a travel partner :-)  It'll all happen someday, I'm sure of it!!  

 For now, I'm going to try to save up so that I can go to Bolivia with my favorite Bolivian!!!  She is going to try to go at the end of the year, and if she does I will try to go with her :-)  Buahahahaha

I want to go here

And here


My Grammy got to go here, can't I too?

It's magical here but no one wants to go with me... let's go.

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

FEBRUARY!

I love love love February because:
IT CONTAINS MY BIRTHDAY! 

Weeeeee!!  (not like I look forward to it much)

February means it's almost March which is practically May which means IT'S ALMOST SUMMER!!

I have also decided that on the dreaded February 14th, I'll be going to the Library.  I confirmed my plans with myself today.


.... gosh I really am strange.